i dont even want to celebrate my birthday. and i promise you its not because of my age. My family, both sides are being extremely difficult, especially my dad. Im trying to please everyone by doing something with everyone over the weekend but the they dont want to do at the times alloted. I work saturday night, trying to get it covered and that would solve a lot of problems but no, no one will cover. This is upposed to be my birhtday and its like everyone is thinking what they want to do instead of what i want to do . I want to bbq with my friends on sunday, after hanging with the family, yet im still a selfish bitch for wanting that. Hes being so fucking insensitive and a fucking jerk i cant believe it. i dont want to do ANYTHING. at this point i want to lock myself in my room and not talk to anyone.
parents will never realize the impact divorce will ALWAYS have on kids. im still paying the price, but how do they see it? as a competition. who do i love more? who do i like better? who do i want to spend more time with.
i am never right.
maybe some things are better left unsaid.
I need to realize that even though i have my flaws, it doesnt mean that i should aspire to change them, i need to find someone who knows about my flaws and loves me all the same.
one of the greatest feelings in the world, is walking into a room where your friend is, and without even saying anything she knows something is wrong just by looking at your face. and let me tell you my face was not upset looking! thats someone who knows you. and if you dont take the time to get to know me, then dont you dare pretend to think that you know me when you havent the slightest idea about what im about or what acutally goes on in my head and in my life. i hope you day you can realize that and how much of an ass you are and how much growing up you need. For someone whose years older than me, you sure dont act like it
i really need to buckle down and kick it up a notch with my diet and workout routine as well the supplements to help me achieve my goals. i have tahoe in less than a month, then a bridal shower followed by a bachlorette party and then a wedding, all within 5 weeks. im kind of freaking out at the moment
i may never understand why guys will just suddenely stop talking to you out of nowhere, its not like i dont know the reasons why. new girl, old girl, they used me, their over me, etc, yet they just dont have the balls to tell me that so theyd rather not say anything. I guess we never really leave highschool in our adult lives. and though it may bug me, i will not let it bring me down. instead i will use it as motivation to get a hotter body to rub in their face. how do you like them apples?
having a hard time today remembering the people who are not in my life anymore but still alive. The ones who stopped caring and i just got too tired doing all the caring in the friendship. what hurts the most? they seem to still have a lot of the same friends, so why not me? whats so wrong with me that people always leave
“i have to stop thinking that its not me, it has to be me”
its amazing that two weeks of being sick can undo all the hard work that youve done for working out. I’m back to where i started with three months to go and im feeling stressed and just dont think i can do it